Totally and utterly baffled.


Posted in General by loisemma on June 11, 08

After a wonderful day around London yesterday (with delights such a Brick Lane, cream cheese bagels, birthday presents, a new look Oxford St Topshop, Ribena and Hyde Park), I have decided to take another trip into the park today! Although, I hobbled around for most of the day yesterday, due to a sore ankle! I am really unsure of what occured there, but it still hurts! Hopefully, today’s pleasures will help to take my mind off the nasty thing!

I’m also hoping the rain stays off today, I don’t fancy a soggy lunch with an old friend. M is wonderful, and I haven’t seen him in just under 2 years. Judging from photos, he hasn’t changed at all, apart from a couple of piercings, but I can’t wait to give him a big hug again!

Yesterday, I managed to buy myself a lovely pair of blue button earrings in The Laden Showroom. Here I am sporting them, looking all British in red, white and blue! :

The Laden Showroom in Brick Lane is a wonderful shop which sells pieces by over 15 designers, who each have a little booth each. Everytime I go in, there is always something different to choose from. It’s relatively pricey but it has lots of nice ideas on making your own stuff too!

Still not warm enough to wear my playsuit 😦

My sister was kind enough to give me her old Ipod yesterday, which I was increasingly happy about. Even though the screen is a bit muddled and coloured, I now have a place to store all my music so I can listen to GOOD STUFF on the train! I’m so happy. Luckily, my friend J was lovely enough to load ITunes on my computer for me at the beginning of my year off, so everything transferred over very nicely equalling a super smiley Lois!

Life seems to be looking up. Over the year off, I fell for one of my best friends, B. He’s a guitarist from New Jersey with hardcore social ADD and floppy blonde locks. As time went by, I got deeper and deeper and in the end found myself in love with him. Before we left, I wrote him an intense letter, explaining everything, how much I liked him, how he made me feel, etc. I handed it to him on the second to last day and told him to read it whenever he wanted. I’m still waiting eagerly for a response. I’m so scared. At night it gets worse, when I’m alone and have time to think. This boy has really got to me. I will be seeing him really soon and I really hope everything sorts itself out. The worst thing is, I can no longer listen to Explosions in the Sky without thinking of him! Rawr. Men.

Anyway, I need to be off, dressing to do and hair to straighten.
Goodbye, kids.



Posted in General by loisemma on June 10, 08

After being inspired by my pal Rosie, I have decided to make myself a wordpress. I used to have a blog on Diaryland, but I started that in 2001, and 7 years later think I may just be growing out of it!

I suppose I should start with a small profile. I’ll try to keep it brief in fear of boring you!
I’m Lois. Lois Emma. Emma being my middle name. I never used to like it much, but have adopted it for “pen name” purposes. My surname is Shafier. My ancestors were Danish and that’s all I know really. I believe very much in looking forward rather than back although often find myself reading old love letters or wall posts from the past just to reminisce and smile. Even I’m a stronger believer in the future, I am mortified of growing up. I have no clue about mortgages or taxes or any of those things!
I’m 19 years old and currently on my gap year. A week ago, I returned from a 9 month organised trip to Israel, where I studied, “experienced” and volunteered. Whilst being there, I was diagnosed with clinical depression and although I’m doing fine now, I often find myself falling back into that “dreaded hole” on bad days. Being away from home for such a long period time made me realise so many things about myself. I have grown up in so many ways and have already started to use my found realisations in my home life.
This summer is full of fun. In just 3 weeks, I will be travelling to New York to visit my lovely American pals before heading onto New Jersey to see some more! I will only be on the East Coast for 10 days before returning home to England. A mere 11 days later, I shall be leading a Jewish summer camp for 15 year olds in Dorset which I am very much looking forward to! This tiring 3 weeks finishes mid-August when I shall be getting a job (eek!) before going to uni late-September.
Next year, I shall be studying at Manchester Metropolitan. The course I have chosen is Film and Television with Cultural Studies. My huge interest in Media and love for Culture make this the perfect course for me, and I’m extremely excited to start!

So yes, that’s me.

Today, I am meeting a friend around lunchtime for fun in Brick Lane, one of my favourite places in London. It is the first time I’m getting into town upon my return and cannot wait! It all seems very weird not feeling part of a place you’ve belonged to your entire life after being away for a year, but after a couple of hours, the pieces start to fit together again and a love lost comes flooding back.
I wish it was warmer today. I bought the cutest little playsuit over the weekend that is sitting in my wardrobe DYING to be worn!
I probably should have a shower, the pyjamas I took to Israel have all caught a rotten stench that will not go away, even after 2-3 washes! I should probably chuck them out..
I often find myself procastinating most early morning. Today, I am writing a letter to my penpal, savouring a crumpet and gulping down a cold cup of apple juice whilst facebook chatting with friends.

I’m off, enjoy your day, lovers.